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     Being in NYC has been good for me. Not necessarily how I pictured it would be because I always have expectations and I need to realize that is NEVER a good thing. You think NYC and you see glitz glamour and really great opportunities that could never happen in Ohio. Although this is true in certain sense, I am realizing that is not why I here. I am in NYC to learn how to work with people who are different than me, grow up and mature in myself and to come to grips with what I want in life. Now for those of you that know me, you know I am a high moral bar for myself but I also love film and the world of Hollywood, which to me, doesn't go together. However, while at my internship I am realizing that the direction of film and directing is my passion and I really think I have a calling in that direction more so than where I am at. I needed to be placed in this environment so I would learn not to settle for what I thought I could do as opposed to what I want to do. You always hear, go for your dream! I always said I would, but in the back of my head I felt that it was to lofty for me to try, maybe someone else, but not me. More and more I am realizing that I am in NYC to get out of this complacency in life and to decide once and for all that I am gonna try and do this. I keep reading stories through my research about strong women who work at the head of their companies, started their own, or now started a non profit and the only difference I see is that they had confidence and went for it and I am scared. Well I am going to get over that and decide that this is what I want.
     Coming to grips with this also has it's roots deep into WHY I want to direct films. I want to help create films that have positive morals and films that are real, that show life as it truly is with the consequences that do exist for people's actions. Too many movies show these CRAZY circumstances and the protagonist of the story always gets away with what ever illegal thing they did, I think children and people need to see life as it really is. See real heroes. So that is my passion within film. People may tell me "well that's not what the consumer wants to see" but I don't buy that. I've meet plenty of people who have encouraged me and said that is exactly what they need. Does the audience decide what the studios create or does the studios create  what the audience wants? Who is influencing who? Are you to tell me that they wanted to go from the Cosby show to Nip Tuck? I think we are passive consumer's and therefore the studio get away with putting crap on our television's and at our theaters. What Liz Wants, is to change that.